DarkChevalier

there was this girl i knew an i liked her alot  but all she ever did was tell me all i was not she used to laugh an joke an call me an old fart  i dont think she knew how her words tore me apart i used to tell her that i loved her an that i care  she would just get this blank look an stare i would tell her i'd protect her an treat her like gold  she would just laugh at me an say im too old i told her all i wanted was to be a part of her life  she said i was dreamin if i thought she'd ever be my wife i begged her to let me be with her, i told her "i love you"  she said "i dont even like you, im sorry but its true" she turned

I sit here leaning up against my bed  all these things running thru my head Why me why me whatever did i do  I dont think i deserve these things i go thru Why cant i be happy, why cant i find love  did i do something to anger the man up above I feel so alone here trying to feel in the dark  theres nothing left in me, no glimmer no spark They all see my bruises but they dont seem to care  all they ever do is just whisper an stare I try to make friends but my smile is so fake  how can you love life when your told your a mistake So here i am, i shake and i weep  remembering all the words that cut me so deep My body is wracke

I was born an u were proud  but u never once said it aloud I dont kno what made ur life so bad  what turned u cold, what turned u mad All i can say is .. it wasnt me  so why cant u just let me be Why do u laugh when u call me a name  do u think this is all some kind of game Is this how u let your love show  your fists on me blow after blow u make me bleed, u make me cry  I just lay in pain an ask "why dad why" Maybe this is just my fate  A body for u to unleash all ur hate Please oh please wont u quit  If ur tryin to kill me then just do it Or do u like being able to brag  that u have ur very own live punching bag .

Here i lie on the bathroom floor  my head resting againt the door I try to get up, i try to stand  but i lay here with a bottle in my hand It used to be full just like my life  before the pain, the blood, an the strife I didnt mean to but the pain was too much  so i swallowed a pill for every harmful touch For every spiteful name .. i swallowed For every punch .. i swallowed For ever kick, for every cold word ..  for every hateful glare .. i swallowed Dear lord how many did i take  one for every tear, how many does that make This time there are too many bruises to hide  now im like this bottle, all empty inside I own a